I’ve always felt like I was just filling in the empty space in my heart with something stupid, wishing to find some sort of normality and meaning in reckless coping mechanisms and after partying a little too hard for the past month, I had no choice but to take a break from how much my body was out of order. During that time I once again picked up work on a couple of my previously stated projects and was shocked to realize something: I was editing and smiling. Being out of your comfort zone, confused, out of place and embarrassed, paired up with drinking a little bit too much, brought me some sense of newfound appreciation in being alone on my ‘puter.

I guess I can say that I now more or less understand that grass truly is not greener on the other side. It’s hard to give people advice because I didn’t realize it myself either until nowt, but you really should not be going overboard chasing idiotic things thinking they are less idiotic than you are. There is tranquility in living your life with your true self that you will lose and feel even worse if you push it away way too much.

Regardless, I am now drinking alcohol-free coke and working on a new video and, with a lot of notes finished for my next essay, I am hoping that will also be released soon! I am aware that not everyone reading Fungus Blog has the same amount of information on things I write that I do but I hope to make up for it by giving more context, which I feel like might be fun in itself for me, that shit-assed YouTuber vibe is the cherry on top for blogging and comes without having to deal with how difficult YouTube can be.

Being that I am feeling good, everyone else must too. I am issuing a request to the Fungus Blog fans to resume working on your own guest publications which I have been promised. Who knows, you might even find your creative flow and/or be released from losing with your hands busy at a keyboard.

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